TABLE OF CONTENTS
Copyright © 2023 by Camilla Sanderson
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PART ONE: Crisis Transmutation
PART ONE shares the spiritual gifts inherent in two journeys.
The stories of the two journeys are told in a braided narrative:
one narrative thread is the story of Camilla and Jamie’s journey through Jamie’s cancer;
and the other narrative thread is the story of Camilla’s journey through interfaith seminary.
Chapter 1. New York City, October 2010
Chapter 2. New Hampshire, April 2012 (One and a Half Years Later)
Chapter 3. Before the ER, September 2010
Chapter 4. New York Presbyterial Hospital, October 2010
Chapter 5. Circle Leadership, New Hampshire, September, 2012
Chapter 6. New York City, October 2010, Biopsy Surgery
Chapter 7. Sadhana, New Hampshire, October 2012
Chapter 8. New York City, October 2010, Waiting for Diagnosis
Chapter 9. Courage, New Hampshire, October 2012
Chapter 10. The Nature of Life is a Terminal Diagnosis
Chapter 11. Treasures, New Hampshire, December 2012
Chapter 12. New York City, November 2010, Diagnosis
Chapter 13. INNER CRITIC, New Hampshire, March 2013
Chapter 14. New York City, November 2010, Choices
Chapter 15. The Bhagavad Gita, New Hampshire, April 2013:
Chapter 16. New York City, Chemotherapy
Chapter 17. The Bhagavad Gita and Healing, New Hampshire, May 2013
Chapter 18. New York City, December 2010, Chemo Crisis
Chapter 19. The Dance of Will and Surrender, New Hampshire, June 2013
Chapter 20. New York City, 2011, Chemo Completion
Chapter 21. Ordination, New Hampshire, 2014
PART TWO: Growing Up
PART TWO braids two coming-of-age narratives: Camilla growing up in a home accessible only by water in Pittwater, Australia; and Jamie and Camilla young adulting in New York City.
Chapter 22. Pittwater, Australia 1978-1988
Chapter 23. New York City, November 1990
Chapter 24. Lovett Bay: North, South, West, East
Chapter 25. TreeTops, New Hampshire, December 1990
Chapter 26. Pittwater, Father, and Freedom
Chapter 28. Pittwater and Sailing
Chapter 29: A “Real Job” in New York City
Chapter 31: Ideal Boss, New York City, 1995
Chapter 33: Moving Back to Sydney, 1998
Chapter 34: Dark Night of the Soul, Sydney, 1999
Chapter 35: The Mother Wound and Inner Authority
Chapter 36: New York City Again
PART THREE: Lotus Friendships
PART THREE is a braided narrative of Lotus friendships: using the Lotus metaphor to show that we grow and blossom because of our muck, not in spite of it.
One narrative braid tells the story of a Thai Forest Buddhist monastery taking root across the road from TreeTops — our decades-old log cabin in New Hampshire — and developing a Lotus friendship with a 36-year old monk; the other braid tells Camilla and Jamie’s creation story – the blossoming of a lotus love story🥰
Chapter 38. Temple Forest Monastery, 2013
Chapter 39.
Chapter 40: Meditation and Dhamma Talks
Chapter 41.
Chapter 42: Becoming Friends with an American Buddhist Monk
Chapter 43.
Chapter 44: Presence, Conscious Awareness, and Sexual Energy
Chapter 45.
Chapter 46: Buddhist Monks and Nuns
Chapter 47.
Chapter 49: TreeTops, February 2018 (including an Epilogue)
For your title, I have always believed the first idea is the best.
I do love your writing Camilla, and prefer the newer title. More approachable, friendly? I'm not a writer at all, so just going by how the titles feel to me. ♥️